Literally, Fuck it! I'm venting.

If this is never read, that I'm writing it alone has helped to balance the Universe out a little more.
Emotions are what gets everybody up in arms because with out the emotions, people wouldn't have the energy to let the motion exist.
But I'm not going to dull you with my empty prose and lack of style, charisma or structure.  I will, tell you that life can take everything you love and turn it against you but still find a way to make you out to being the bad guy.  Take cigarettes for example; I'm sure somebody loved them until the little bundles of joy were made out to be very bad for you. Instead of giving the cig a bad rap, the person smoking the cig gets the bad rap. All they are doing is dealing with the love they have for the cig the best they can.  Is that so wrong?
Well literally, some people have their heads so far up their ass that they can't tell the difference and use arguments of supposed morality and notion of appropriateness to confine what their meager understandings predetermined as wrong.
That is cute.

I do not agree with most people I meet. And when I do agree with people, it is rarely on much more than how good food is or how shitty it is to feel all alone in the world.

So, why do I think the way I see the World is the more accurate vision?
It isn't that I think I do have the best vision, I'm broke, alone, and tired of fighting.  I think all those tell the story that I'm not absolutely happy with how I see the world.

I don't see what other people think is so carefree about  this World, with people dying in natural disasters all the time, and other crazy shit happening randomly. Life is not guaranteed to anyone.

And as I find myself in a crossroads, all I can think is "Damn, I wish I could see further in the future than a few days."  Damn being born with a low IQ.

Be careful what you wish for, you just may get it. And just like with the evil soul stealing genies, it always turns out wrong.
So fuck it. I'm going to do what I think is best.

Ice Through Veins Like River Rain

As a youth, exclusion and comparison were paramount in determining preference. Throughout the years, inclusion became the goal as was acknowledging the myriad combinations and utilities of any given decision making process.  The plethora of potential possibilities marked the indecisiveness with overwhelming confusion.

Though, one day, something that has been desired without knowledge finally takes shape; there is finally some concept of what that desire needs to be in a physical form. The next step is always finding a way to come into a state of constant proximity; to achieve "possession" of the desired "thing".

If there is an answer on how to achieve, then should the overall complexity of it be more complex than the sum of the whole of the parts?
It is numbing and the only feeling is that of the icy cold stressed blood running through the veins like a river from distant arctic rains. Life, spent looking into the sky to disguise the tears. The moisture, coalescing to slide to an open air free fall.
Smile for the good things, not to hide the pain. :-)

The Zulu Sage of the Closed Eye

Holding contending views in the same regard is the epitome of intelligence.

Own your view of the World and open your heart to freely allow it to grow unrestricted by the ills of society.

Perception is reality. A truth is nothing less until it is proven to be less than true.

You may think that you see the World with the eyes that are ever consuming the gifted light.
However, without the symbolisms that define that which you see, your limitations would reach far beyond that of a physical set.
And thereby, exist limited without form.

With the eye that accepts "light that is without physical presence" is the true vision into the World you see.

I Will Never Envy the Serpent Within You

Grandiose in the name of pride and self worth. A mistaken concept if ever I followed one.
Purely tragic, the misconception of viability based on accomplishments and deeds.
When individuals are subject to the whispering voices that urge them onward from within. At any moment these voices could sense something that is not what it seems or make more out of a situation than necessary(i.e. crying over spilt(sic) milk).

Being a human being is a particularly confounding phenomenon with all of these idiosyncratic labels devised to denote some convoluted station in an unwritten caste system that somehow despite the unspoken nature of it all, we follow with very little disturbance.

Recognition & disrespect, two ideals that lead most  in search of them to ruin. Principalities and moronic moralities. Sophomoric ingenuity of the educated donk that uses his successes as his leverage when they should merely be used to inspire the future him that he will create tomorrow.
Sacrifice who you are today.
To be better tomorrow.
Just know who you need to do it for because everybody has a different answer.

Appetite and Discipline

Transformative years inspire changes that the remainders of our lives are spent putting into action.
Our wants and wishes, dreams, desires and needs all either conclude in prosperity or disaster depending on those years.
Anybody can redirect their aim but most people never think so deep as to gauge their successes.
More directly, people don't monitor what leads them to the Hells that they've come to know as everyday life.
Selfish, self centered, self importing, egotistical and small minded, we usually accidentally color out of the lines and find fines and social pariah status selectively.
Actively ruling out potentials that are absolutely possible and it is horrendous.
We focus on what the group sees as negative but we define it in such a limited manner that loopholes break free from the prison that which is without redemption and unholy.
And we praise it for staying beyond our reaches.

I felt that my life was ruined for trying my hardest to color in the lines but it has done little but to make me a hard lined, grim silhouetted figure that reaps the very precious final seconds of happiness in the moment.
Pariah? No, I am feared as Death is. And truthfully, I come bearing only love.