Saturday, June 15, 2013

Sexual Mileage

I've never been one to focus on measures of beauty when pursuing a woman. I have been one that focuses on habits, characteristics & personality. There is no perfect way but there are many ways to do it the way I do it. Of those many ways, the relevant way for today is a lack of too much sexual mileage. I'm sure many of you will remember this youtube video from a while back. If not, go ahead and watch it. It's fairly funny and fairly short.

Now, there a few ways to gauge sexual mileage and none of them matter too much because the human body is an amazing thing. You could have a woman who was with one man for 6 years and they "smanged" like rabbits. She clearly will get more mileage out of that one guy than any woman could get out of 50 guys in half that time. But we're programmed to distance ourselves from the higher number of partners because...well...there are hypotheses but no definite reason. I'd like to think of it as the sexually transmitted disease prevention rule*. It appears to be a high risk interaction compared to a woman with fewer partners. The mileage isn't so important in that estimation. It's the reckless nature of hooking up with people you couldn't possibly know well enough to share intimate space with them that's the problem.

How smart does a woman need to be in order to learn a man enough to have relations with him? How dumb does a man need to be in order to be simple enough for a woman to learn him in a short period of time? Either way, it is a bad look. Dumb man, short time & no sense. Not good enough for me. And not because her humanity is compromised. It isn't. It is her approach to living that is incompatible. I disagree with it. I don't believe the body should be used without regard to the feelings of the person you may end up with. And that isn't to say that the body shouldn't experience proper usage. It is more to say, don't half ass your commitments. Do it seriously and sincerely. Otherwise, you end up with 30 guys  in 6 years and can't really explain how the number got so large. You know what's worse than being reckless with your money? Being reckless with your body; with your health.

I don't want a "chaste" woman. I don't want a woman who has far less experience than I do. I want a woman who can match me in experience so that we can grow together with the least amount of confusion, humiliation and conflict. And a woman having twice the number of sexual partners; twice the number of expectations; twice the number of excuses; half as much discipline and even less confidence simply isn't going to work with a person who lives by a weird set of ideals such as myself. Sure, other men feel similarly or even much more harshly about how many partners a woman should have had. But who's out here allowing these men to prosper while possessing such ignorant thoughts. At least I want a woman that mirrors my depth and understanding. And you cannot understand until you've walked a mile. I just want the one who has walked that mile.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Bitter Water

I have tried countless times to share what little understanding of the world I possess. Time and again, the people I share with get frustrated and turn their efforts towards me as if I were some obstacle blocking their growth.

Imagine I don't exist. Imagine what little meaningful insight you gained from me was something you had to find on your own. The gratitude, appreciation & thankfulness are all lies. For fangs to bare toward an echo carried by the wind.

This sort of thing would inflict injury. I couldn't understand why folk would turn on me. After years of this pattern, I took responsibility & slowly stopped sharing my precious views. Nobody respects my thoughts like I do. It is a waste of my time to share for cowards to turn on me.

That is not to say there were not good interactions but that them being sparse is insufficient. I really could grab the world in some manner and shake it thoroughly. Maybe I will.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

I like dogs like I like children

My concept of children  is that they are a necessary evil. As a concept, I don't see any issue with them. There is not a conflict with them aside from that they come from other people. Those other people have bothersome habits. Dogs are like children and pay much attention to the manners of interaction. These little creatures absorb these habits and become a greater nuisance than they would have been alone. This is how they are; to be hated when possessed by another owner. 

I own a dog. My dog has some of my annoying traits like my high energy; strong desire for play; super awareness; quick reflexes and propensity to think harder than necessary.  Two reasons: the breed is known for that & because we spend much of our time interacting. For a dog that weighs more than 70lbs, it is interesting how much ability has matured in such a short amount of time. I am completely content with watching her grow up.

As she is my dog, I can appreciate her quirks and don't find them very bothersome at all. Other people's dogs seem hopelessly stupid, poorly behaved, disobedient and violent...just like them. I feel like it is something to brag about. My good qualities seem to have come out and manifested in this animal. Though I have had a few white people try and diminish my accomplishment as just the breed. If they knew the person I got the dog from and how his dogs behaved, they wouldn't say that stupid shit. Then again, it isn't surprising to have ignorant people say ignorant things because of ignorance. Something someone like me has had to burden. I'm not claiming to be smart but I'm also not stealing any person's deserved accomplish from beneath them by way of insult. If it happened, it happened. That's why I look at other people's offspring like animals and have begun to treat them in a manner befitting their behavior. Forget being an adult about my interactions. I decided that society is trying to get me up outta here. Since that is the way it is, I'll only abide by the necessary standards. If your child is well behaved, then all is well. If your child is misbehaving, expect me to get you and make you accountable. The same as I would do if it were your dog. If you cannot control the little beast, then I will do it and you won't like it. Then I'll control you as well. One way or another, you'll have remorse for being such a piece of crap when it comes to cultivating another life. The same as I'd expect people to hold me to a certain standard. As they have. Always keeping an eye on me. Always interested in what I do, how I do it and why I'm doing it.

I like dogs like I like children...especially if they aren't allowed to grow as weeds and cultivated like life is supposed to be cultivated.